Fuck Being A Fucking Math Major

     So I definitely set this posterous up to actually post on and possibly put some of my writings up.  But of course after I set it up I immediately forgot all about it and moved on to studying math.  That would make this my first official post on this site even though it has been sitting dormant waiting for me to fill its pages.  As usual I am writing while under the influence of a lot of "inspiration" and I feel as if being Asian might not actually be enough to get me through my math classes.  I originally thought that being a math major would help me out a lot in life, and from my experiences it is a pretty good degree to have coming out of college.  However, I truly cannot stand the schedule I have this semester simply because of the math.  Maybe less than a year ago I was willing to freely admit that math was enjoyable and I could actually see myself doing it as a profession.  Then slowly it turned into a vision where math wasn't enjoyable but I was smart enough to do it so it was worth keeping for the money.  Now I am officially at the point where I am just so pissed and stressed that I truly can't see how I got sucked into this abysmal never-ending major.  And I have noticed too that its only the college part of the Math Major that I truly despise.  I want to believe that at this point in time if I was hired as a calculus 1 teacher I would be able to set up a curriculum, find a book, and create assignments and a test for my class.  And yet even though I only want to teach cal1 and maybe cal3, I still have to learn ridiculously advanced math that will not be pertinent to my teaching calculus....

          I am currently in 3 math classes: MATH 323, MATH 402, and MATH 422.  323 and 402 are not terribly difficult material and I actually like my 323 teacher (only second math teacher I have liked my entire college life).  However, my 422 class is stupid difficult.  And not stupid as in intellectually stupid but stupid as in "I don't wanna look at the book in case I have a seizure," stupid.  Not only is the material super difficult but the teacher is teaching about twice as fast as he should so getting behind or lost is easier than shooting fish in a barrel.  It's more like shooting an already dead fish lying on the ground point-blank with a fucking desert eagle.  I'm to pissed to finish this.